What hurts the most - Rascal flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

SOMETIMES, YOU JUST CAN'T TELL ANYBODY HOW YOU REALLY FEEL. NOT BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW WHY. NOT BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW YOUR PURPOSE. NOT BECAUSE YOU DON'T TRUST THEM. BUT BECAUSE YOU CAN'T FIND THE RIGHT WORDS TO MAKE THEM UNDERSTAND.

I love this song!

The red jumpsuit aparatus - your guardian angel

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can’t replace
And now that I’m strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I’ll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It’s okay. It’s okay. It’s okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I’ll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cause you’re my, you’re my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don’t throw that away
Cause I’m here for you
Please don’t walk away and
Please tell me you’ll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I’ll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Lagu ini udah lama sih, tp gue baru tau akhir2 ini dr Disya hehe.. suka banget sama lagu ini, haha berharap ada yg punya perasaan ke gue kaya di lagu ini. but keep on dreaming bells T_T

Nurhidayah in my memory :')

Today, Nurhidayah a.k.a Ida, my friend, my classmate, my chairmate in elementary school is died.. I never imagine to lose her so fast like this. And now I'll tell you everything in my memory about her.

Ida itu temen gue dari kelas 1 SD, gue inget gue selalu duduk dideket dia dan beberapa tahun gue duduk disamping dia. Dia baik bangettttt,gue menghabiskan masa SD gue bareng dia. Gue biasa main lompat tali, galaksin, kasti, tak jongkok, petak umpet dll semuanya sama dia dan temen2 SD gue.

Setiap kenaikan kelas pasti gue selalu tetep sekelas sama dia, tp pernah waktu kelas 5 gue ngga sekelas sama dia alhasil gue langsung nangis ngejer saat itu jg waktu dibacain absen dan nama gue ga ada bareng dia. Haha tp untungnya gara2 ngeliat gue nangis guru gue langsung mindahin Ida balik sekelas sama gue :)

Sumpah saat itu kayanya hidup tuh semuanya gampang, ketemu dia juga langsung bisa ketawa seneng2. bener2 ga ada beban..

Dan pagi ini denger kabar kalo dia udah ga ada rasanya bener2 gabisa percaya............... Ya Allah baru kemaren dia sms gue :'( kenapa tiba2 udah ga adaaaa? oke ini takdir, udah keputusan yang diatas. Gue tau kok dan gabisa dipungkiri.

Tadi waktu gue ngelayat kerumahnya tangisan gue udah bener2 gabisa ditahan, gue nangis ngejer bangettttt. Malu sih diliatin tp bodo amat orang namanya sedih. Dan gue sebeeeel sama orang2 yg nyuruh gue supaya ga nangis tanpa coba untuk ngehibur gue dan ngasih tau gue gimana caranya supaya gue berenti nangis! sebeeeel lo gatau gimana rasanya, ini tuh bener2 kehilangan banget lo gatauuuuuuu!

But for you, I'll try to smile and let you go. So God I pray to you please make her stay beside you, and make her family stronger because of losed her. I know she is a good girl, she must be in heaven now with you God.

Goodbye my best friend forever, I love you and I will mis you much Ida :')

The human heart knows thing the eyes cant see,

and feels the things the mind cant understand.

But if love is just a word, then why does it

hurt so much when you find it is not there?

Sammy's Adventures The Secret Passage

Film ini lumayan lucu, lucu banget sih haha. Karena sepanjang gue nonton film ini gue ketawa terus. Kayanya sampe ada yg protes gara2 gue ketawa terus-__- Tapi sebenernya yg bikin film ini bagus itu soundtracknya aaaaa keren2 abis gaboong, di film ini ada beberapa lagu yaitu :

Free (New Version w/o Jack Johnson Lead Vox) - Donavon Frankenreiter
Happy People - Dry Spells
Love Today - Mika
Count on me - Bruno mars
Talking to the moon - Bruno mars
California Dreamin' (Single Version) - The Mamas & The Papas
Love Will Find A Way - Mishon
Ain't No Sunshine - Michael Jackson
You're Not Alone - Self
Love Child - Fibes, Oh Fibes!
Shark In The Water - V V Brown
Elle Panique G énérique TV - Olivia Ruiz
Welcome To The World - Ramin Djaw adi
Exploring The Sea - Ramin Djaw adi
Here Comes Samy - Ramin Djaw adi
Shelly's Lost - Ramin Djaw adi
The Coral Reef - Ramin Djaw adi
Where Is My Girl - Ramin Djaw adi
Around The World - Ramin Djaw adi
Wedding Ballet - Ramin Djaw adi


Tlisan yang warna Biru itu yg paling bagus menurut gue (Y) Kayanya sih film ini udah ga ada lagi di beberapa theatre, coba aja beli dvd-nya kalo mau nonton :D Oiya jangan lupa download lagunya!

Happy birthday Papa♥

Hari ini 4, September 2010 papaku tercinta ulang tahun. Tadinya mau ngucapin waktu jam 00.00 pas tapi gara2 ketiduran gajadi deh-__- Akhirnya ngucapinnya tadi abis sahur. Waktu ngucapin sambil salim gitu tiba-tiba gue langsung dicium pipi kirikanan sama papa, huaaaa langsung sedih mau nangis :'( sedihnya itu karna gue gabisa ngasih apa2 cuma ucapan happy birthday doang, bahkan kemaren gue sempet lupa untung aja diingetin sama mama. Aduh bener2 ngerasa jadi anak yg buruk!!! 


Tapi mau gimanapun I love you so much cause you're the best father in the world, and my life never be perfect without you :) hope you all the best, the greatest. I'm so lucky to have father like you, love you muaaaah :*:*